My Life FREAKING Sucks.

Hey! So, CONGRATS! you made it through my babbling.. or you skipped it. Either way.. I don't mind. 


Anyways, this is called "My Not-So-Secret Diary" but I really haven't said anything diary worthy yet. Okay yeah this is really awkward so I'm just gonna get to the diaryish parts now if you don't mind.. 


so basically.. 


MY BIGGEST ISSUES AT THE MOMENT: 


1. I'm starting high school in exactly 5 days and I would rather not. I'm freaking out a little. 


2. I reeeeeally miss all my friends from when I went to Peru in June/July. Especially my host, Isabella, and all my other friends:( I have a hard time saying goodbye.. 


3. There is a huge cold sore on my lip and like I said earlier IM STARTING HIGH SCHOOL ON M O N D A Y. AND as if my life doesn't suck enough.. I have orientation tomorrow. I don't even know if the freaking cold sore will just die by monday or if i need surgery or something to finally kill it. Not to be gross or anything but it's NASTY as anything. Actually.. now that I think about it.. this horrible thing on my lip reminds me of my old math teacher, Mr. Z.. big, ugly, and I cannot WAIT to get rid of it. (More about THAT weirdo later..) 


4. So there's this guy I like. Like, a lot. As in slightly huge crush. He's really adorable and he's hot and I know he at least liked me. The only problem is.. he lives 10,000 miles away. In Lima freaking PERU. I chat with him on facebook all the time, but I know I'll never be able to have a real relationship with him. You can't kiss someone over skype. What really sucks is he TOLD ME he liked me.. AFTER I GOT BACK HOME. Greeeat timing Paolo. (thats his "name".. isn't it cute?) UGH I HATE THIS FEELING. And when I was there I didn't really like him that much.. mostly as a friend but a little bit more. I didn't really know what I felt. 


sometimes, my life REALLY sucks. As in FREAKING SUCKS. 


xoxo gen <3